denturist appointment update...or should i say disappointment?

of course....it's still gray. but lots of beautiful colours of green too!

poor jambaloney worked all day yesterday and then we had to drive an hour and a half into port hawkesbury this morn at 7 to make it to my denturist appointment.

my denturist took a 35 second glance into my mouth and shuddered. he quickly regained himself and in the kindest terms possible told us that my mouth had suffered some serious trauma. which both me and jambaloney knew. it took 4 hours for my dentist to take out my 15 teeth...during the taking out of my teeth another dentist walked by and said "are you still working on her? for the love of gawd, give her some novocaine". so i had lidocaine, novocane, and some other ocanes, and it took 4 hours to get get my teeth out. at one point, my dentist went and got another dentist to take out one of my teeth and he had to take it out in 4 pieces.

like i said, the denturist took one look in my mouth and said that my mouth suffered severe trauma. he was very respectful to the dentist who took my teeth out...and explained that normally you grab a tooth by the crown and pull it out and then a whole is left. but in my case, i have a trench on the upper right side of my mouth. he explained that they must have had to wrench and wrench pieces of my teeth out - which they did and explained to me as they were doing it. he said i must have been smashed in the face several times when i was younger because he could see from the trenches that were left that several of my teeth fused together and he was right. that's what left the trenches.

he told me he would make me dentures right there on the spot. but that i would be back every 2 weeks, because even though there was no sign of infection ( thank The Lord) - i was healing slower because the trenches were so deep. so he wants me to wait and go back on july 19.

i cried the whole drive home. i am normally a very good healer...i have had several nose surgeries and several broken bones which healed up super quick during my life. i knew my gums were healing but i also knew that i had a wicked trench in my upper mouth. every time i eat i rinse my mouth with salt water. i have never let even the tiniest piece of food get stuck in any of the holes or the trench.

my denturist said that my mouth and tongue were extremely healthy but that i had trauma done to my jawbone and that was because the dentist had such a hard time extracting teeth that had grown interconnected.

i left feeling like i had done something wrong. the denturist said my mouth was extremely healthy but the trauma caused from wrenching my teeth out made for slower healing. i am a fast healer! i have had more broken bones and things than you can imagine! and i always heal faster than normal. just not this time.

so i cried the whole way home with jambaloney trying to console me. talking to my sister C when i got home helped a lot and she gave me some ideas to try.

but i feel like i did something wrong??? i have been blitzkrieging my meals, i have been taking my vitamins and probiotics and green shakes daily, i have been eating only fish that has been caught at Lobsters R Us and trout that jambaloney catches, i have been eating lots of fruit - i am a quick healer! i have always healed quickly. but jam and i both acknowledged on the drive home that - YES - there is a big trench in my mouth. not holes where teeth were pulled but a trench where teeth were jiggle-jaggled and made bigger because the roots of my teeth were so interwoven.

yes, i am having a pity party. yes, it's still gray out there. yes, little edgar got his food this morning but i haven't seen him since we got home. jambaloney is so worn out he is out in the living room sleeping in his chair with his feet in the ottoman. he put in a full day of work yesterday - in at 6am - left at 4pm and then an hour of shopping and an hour drive home. he is as disappointed as i am.

such a downer post, i know. but some people on the interwebs have accused me of overdoing how wonderful it is here. please believe that i don't overdo it. it IS INCREDIBLY WONDERFUL HERE. but then this b*llshit teeth stuff has to happen.

my man is gorgeous and has all of his little tiny beautiful teeth. he has been looking at me with no teeth for over 2 months. i want to be attractive for him.

and right now, all i want to do, even though i am already doing it, is cry.

i wish all of you the best and i am so sorry for such a downer post - but eff! i thought i was going to get teeth today. can somebody please send me some teeth????

sending love to you all...i mean it.