Monday, July 22, 2013

omg - i am sooo tired that i can't even sleep!

i am missing my baby. yes, i am a big whiny baby. but, sorry if this is TMI, i just got my period yesterday, i haven't slept in 2 days, nor eaten. and i had to go to a party and be all cool and stuff. i was successful.

then i crashed for only 4 hours, probably because of the booze. but then i had to get up and make it through a 1 and half hour drive to the funeral home. for my friend. and i survived like a trooper. then i had to look at my beautiful friend laid out in a casket. i wish i could have done her hair and makeup. she was so particular and always looked so "done". i wish i could have done her up the way she would have wanted.

then i had to look at pics of her over her life. i have only known her for 2 years but let me tell you that when she told me stories, and screeched through most of them, my heart was happy! i won't tell you about the episode when she talked about crab and how much she hated it...jambaloney still imitates it to this day and it is NOT pg13. oh my goodness she had a mouth on her.

i am dead tired. i need to eat something but i did eat some canteloupe earlier...i promised jambaloney. i don't want to take a migraine pill because it will knock me senseless...and i have cats to feed, birds to feed and plants to water tomorrow. and probably a million more cat plates to wash!

sweet Sandy, sweet Jane. Practical P, Harry - if any of you are still up, please put up a post about anything so that i can have something to read? thank you.

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  1. All good girls need to get sleep. If you don't I can count on one hand the number of folks who will take your ass down. Please get some sleep.

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    1. oh, Rob, buddy - thanks for that! you gave me a big *ssed giggle and i really needed it!

      i'm gonna try and go down in a few minutes.

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  2. Aaah Hugs to you, letting go is hard. hope you can get some sleep

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    1. thank you sooo much K. i am just sick with this migraine, period, funeral and missing my baby. it's all a little too much right now. but thank you for those hugs!

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  3. Did I not tell you guys? Whiny, crying, moaning and groaning. At least she held off almost two full days this time. I think last year she started this off the very next day.

    I think Glock Mom summed it up nicely. "You'll live Buttercup".

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    1. oh mother of all that is holy - buddy, you have a way of getting right into my "craw" (i don't even know what that means but people around here say it all the time!)!

      and you are lucky that the kitchen is a mess and that he is home tomorrow night - else, i'd be coming down with the *ss-kicking boots on!

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    2. So who are they saying it to? Hmmmmm :)

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  4. Snap out of it! In my best Cher impersonation, ha. Seriously though, I understand, though I do admit to liking a BIT of quiet time to myself on occasion. You get out there and plan that awesome greenhouse. Take some pics. Feed the birds. Watch a sunset and toast to J.

    Actually, how about this..,get him to go outside at a pre determined day/time at night and you do the same and both of you look up at the moon. Take a glass and toast to him. Tell him you love him, he'll know. :-)

    Hugs to you always!

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    1. 1st Man - i love your suggestion about the moon and will tell him about it this evening when he calls.

      but i have to stress to all of you - i spent a lot of years in my life believing that i would always be alone. and i was fine with that. or so i thought. once i found him - i never want to be away from him. he is the most wonderful person in the world!!! and i want to be around that kind of inspiration every. single. second.

      i had enough years of alone time. and when he is here, we have tons of alone time. he goes and does stuff in the basement, i water plants, he is out building things, i make our food, he goes fishing, i play with and entertain cats. so we get plenty of alone time!

      i am super glad that he is having such a fantastic time fishing on the lake that he grew up on. i just miss him is all.

      thank you for the hugs - i really appreciate them!!! xoxoxo

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  5. Today, I was not able to take my usual 8-hour nap. I got to bed at about 10:30 or 1:00 pm, awoke at 12:30 am and got up. I got nothing other than the last post with two hens who think I am the anti-Christ or at least the anti-chicken.

    I decided to get up and take the full regimen of otc--chicken broth, Ruffles, sinus and chest congestion relievers--pseudofed and guiafenisen or however you spell them, Hall's Mentholyptus, and something else. And, I got the ac running.

    I was so tired I went to bed with no melatonin, so have to find it. Go and comment away about my lack of trustworthiness as seen by two hens.

    At least my pain is face pain and not migraine. Sorry about that. Yes, drinking will put a person right to sleep and induce sleeplessness. Maybe J will return soon and you can give in to the meds and sleep off the migraine.

    I promised you an email and could not send it, I suppose because I was getting so ill. Promise--I will. Okay, going to see if you found my very late new post.

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    1. oh Linda - i know that you feel like the anti-christ but those 2 hens love their mother!!! and i am soooo sorry that you feel so crappy - when are you going to the doctor??? it has been too long with this sinus infection - i think you need antibiotics!!! jam is home tomorrow night and i just can't wait! feeding cats, washing cat plates, feeding the birds, watering the garden just feel like such long-drawn out things that aren't exciting when he isn't here....we normally do all of those things together! plus, when you really think about, and i don't like to - i am out in the middle of nowhere alone. ack!

      anyway, i read your anti-christ post but didn't leave a comment. i will go and leave a comment in 5! looking forward to more emails with you!

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  6. Firstly thank you for your kind words on my blog.

    Now, you, get some sleep! You sound exhausted to me!

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    1. Joey, buddy, they are never kind words...they are just the truth as i see it. i try very hard not to blow sunshine up people's butts...ya know what i mean? but when i like someone, and like and appreciate their point of view...then i try to express that to them. everyone here calls me "the hugger" and i am sure that they say funny, little nasty things behind my back. i don't care. i spent so many years not having anyone to hug...i am gonna hug everyone to death! but only the people that i like and appreciate and respect. what you call kind words...are simply my blog hugs to you! and i guess that means that i really, really, really like you!

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  7. My dear Kymber, I have had computer difficulties....well more like internet challenges for the last couple of days. Today I have having a tooth stuck in one of my sinuses removed by an oral surgeon. (Fun, fun, fun.) I am so sorry that your friend has passed and that you had to weather the funeral without Jam. You are wise to stay off the migraine med while you must take care of the animals. I am in the same shape here, needing not to take pain meds so I can take care of horses. Love to you !

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    1. oh sweet Jane - i am so sorry about that tooth!!! arghghghg! and yes, i can't take the pills that either make me completely nutty or knock me out for 3 days until jam gets home! i am sorry that you are in the same state and can't take your pain meds because you have all of those beautiful animals to care for. but they appreciate it...and so do i. you have so many beautiful animals. and i am sooo glad that they have you! xoxox

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    2. The surgery is over, and I am actually in less pain than I was with a back tooth broken off to the gum ! The surgeon was wonderful getting those roots out of my sinus. I have no idea how they do what they do. I could never have been a dentist or an oral surgeon.
      I will take it easy today and refill horse and alpaca waters a couple of times, and feed them all a little early.
      You take very good care, my friend. Jam will be home and then your life in one of the most beautiful places on the planet will continue. If I were there, we could buy some yarn, and crochet some things for winter. I make nice soft slippers, particularly when I am laid up, or otherwise stressed. Hugs and love to you my friend,

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  8. You need a mom to come make you eat and sleep! Lack of both just makes things worse sweet Kymber! EAT.....SLEEP, please,for your own self and so you can be ready for when your sweet man returns. You know that I am right, so you should just do it. And cantaloupe? Please girl, you need more than that. If I wrote this post you would be all over me like fly on stink lecturing me about good food and rest and now here you are not taking care of yourself.....how does that work? Don't make me come up there with my bazillion kids, they could hogtie you in like .03 seconds ya know, and then they would force feed you whatever was closest, which sounds like might be cat food, and you know that I would be there taking pics to blog the whole thing....rofl!!! It would be traumatic for you and I would hate to see something like that happen, so maybe spare yourself the pain and humiliation and EAT and get some rest! Seriously! And I am sorry that your friend passed, so many hugs for that, and that Jamie wasn't there to help you through it, more hugs. Love to you....xo....m

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    1. oh mother of all that is holy - did you just pull a MOTHERING on me - bahahahahhahah - ya, i think you did! yes, Mother, you are correct - if you wrote this post i would fly down there and kick your *ss with the *ss-kicking boots! and then feed the heck out of you! but you know that i would love nothing more then you landing here with your 16 million kids - i wouldn't even need to be hog-tied. tired or not, i would teach those kids to make us drinks while we were hanging out in the hottub!!! no worries, i would call up some of the neighbours kids to come and babysit so that you and i could get proper drunk - bahahahaha! thank you for the hugs about my friend - it was hard seeing her laying in a casket. that, and the fact that i have never been to a wake or funeral before...ick.

      but oh man. come up. bring your 16 million kids. we could have some serious fun!

      thanks gurl. i really appreciate your comment. love to you and yours always. xoxoxoxo

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    2. And what makes you think that they haven't already been taught how to make mixed drinks? I mean, there are only a bazillion of them, it would stand to reason that one or two would know how to play bartender....lol. Oh yeah, we can't afford that fancy top shelf stuff, but they do know how to fetch an ice cold generic beer like a pro.....lol. I'm thinking that maybe we should set up a still and start making moonshine and I can call it "science" since we homeschool? ROFL!! Oh man, I'm killing myself here thinking of my half nekid feral five year olds in charge of the moonshine opperation!!

      Anyway, yeah, I hope that you ate some and got in a nice long nap. My MIL once told me that naps cure most problems in life, but I always took that to mean a nap might cure ME of having problems with her....LOL!! Sorry, I still always think of her and that conversation when I think of naps.....all these years later. But in some cases she *might* have been right and I think this is one of them, but don't tell her I said that.

      You take care of yourself and if I hear anymore about you not eating you better lock the doors and hide the catfood, otherwise an army of kids will be having the time of their life feeding you....lol!

      Always, lots of love. m

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  9. Mystic Mud! You are so funny! And Kymber, what she says goes for me too. Please take care. And try some Gatorade. It works for my husband's migraines. The only thing that ever worked for him. And sleep, eat and maybe move the cat food, just in case.
    Tana

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    1. tana - she is pretty funny! but then she's got that army of kids doing all of the work while she suntans - bahahhahaha! oh she is going to kill me for that! i will try the gatorade thing - i have never had gatorade but you just made bells ring in my head thinking about replenishing electrolytes - holy moly - you might really be on to something.

      heck - if it's good enough for the cats....right? thanks for stopping by tana...i really appreciate it!

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    2. "suntans".....you must be sleeping now, cause only in a dream would I be laying around in the sun like a common housecat. If I even tried it would be sure to end in a disaster of me under a pile of kids screaming for my life. They would probably take the opportunity to hog tie ME and then force feed ME catfood!!....never, ever lay in a vulnerable position amoung children that out number you ten to one.....that's rule number one in this crazy life of mine....LOL!!!!!

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  10. Sweet Kymber,

    I'm sorry, I just now seen your post. I actually went to bed just before midnight and finally I slept. No soundly, but I did sleep. usually I'm up past midnight and can't get to sleep.

    Girl you need to eat more than cantaloupe, get some cheese and crackers or something!!!! Not eating and having alcohol will not help you sleep. Alcohol will keep you up. I know you miss your sweetie, and he will be home soon.

    I now wish I didn't fall asleep and stayed up to chat with you.

    I hope your sleeping or planning on napping this afternoon.
    Your Friend,
    Sandy

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    1. oh dear sweet Sandy - don't worry about only seeing the post now. i was just teasin because i was bored and was hoping that one of you would put up a post i could read! i am sorry that you aren't a good sleeper either.

      i didn't have alcohol...that was the other night at the party. but the migraine is just about doing me in...they always come with my period - it's near gawd-awful! i am planning on steaming some broccoli and then trying for a nap. i will lay on the couch with no tv on...that just keeps me awake. but i find if i go into the bedroom to try and nap, it just makes me crazy because i can't hear jam's breathing.

      thank you for being such a good friend, sweet Sandy! hugs to you and yours always!

      (oh crap. i hope jam doesn't see this comment of yours. there is no hug for him. and you know how he expects hugs from his OK friend!!!!)

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    2. I had migraine headaches with my period. If I took off my bra, it eased up. If I held my hands/fingers on shoulders and pushed down, the pain went away momentarily. Plus, snacking on cheese made it worse.

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  11. Kymber, you have sure been taking a beating lately. I hope your husband gets home soon, sounds like you need him. Wish I lived closer I could at least come over and help with the chores and all. Try to get some rest, and be sure to stay hydrated. I'll check back on you soon.

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  12. kymber I'm hurt you haven't read my postings. LOL I have a couple of good ones I think about dealing with trash and water for a disaster. I got my wood for the future wood stove and it's in a wood "pile" just under two meters HA! (Canadian) high and runs from under the carport wraps around the shop and to the edge of the alley. I did not need all this additional physical work right now but live and learn. I won't be making that mistake again!
    I got an older Weber gas grill that my sister said didn't work all cleaned up and working. Cleaned it up and did a little painting and I think it looks pretty good. I got a couple of salmon I can use to test the grill.
    Bought a couple of thick microfiber mats for the kitchen to make standing for cooking and baking a little easier. The little bubble spa is a joy and my local hardware store now carries Tattler reusable canning lids. Not a bad week overall for me.

    Get to feeling better. I use a TENS device for easing cramps. It is an electric pulse muscle stimulator but you can find them for about $30.00 and if you place them about an inch from your spine and over the spot before the top of the hip bones start it does a great job stopping/easing cramps. My Mom says it helps on her Fibro pressrue point too!

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  13. Sorry to hear about your friend. Hope you feel (at least physically) better soon.

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  14. I just had to comment, and tell you how much I am enjoying the blog! When I found it, I decided to go back and read your whole story from the beginning. I have thoroughly enjoyed getting to "know" you and your dear husband. My DH and I have been together since I was sixteen, and I am now fifty! I would love to have the life you both are having, what a fun but satisfying way to live. I cant wait to continue to read about your story! Blessings to you both~

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  15. Oh, dear! Here I am arriving late again for the party and now the moment to commiserate is most definitely past. And how I could commiserate! lol I really hope things have improved and now that Jam is back they most certainly will improve. :-) Get some rest now. xoxoxo

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  16. Kymber, are you still sick? You have been off the air for a bit. I hope you are feeling better.

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